Zonaton by Mooney Linda

Author:Mooney, Linda [Mooney, Linda]
Language: eng
Format: epub
Tags: other worlds, Science Fiction, aliens, dragons, Romance, sensuous, erotic
Publisher: Music And Press
Published: 2014-04-11T05:00:00+00:00

Chapter Eighteen

The Confession

Emmala lay in a light ball as she huddled under the blanket.

She knew she had hurt Zonaton when she'd confessed she wanted a human male. She knew she had hurt him in the deepest way possible because he believed that once she found a human companion, she would no longer need him. No longer want him.

When that was the furthest thing from the truth.

"What I want is you," she whispered into the dark corners of the cave. Speaking aloud without him there allowed her to be open. It gave her the security of knowing he wasn't able to hear her because as long as she kept these thoughts, these wishes within herself, she feared that one day she would inadvertently send them to him. And that possibility frightened her like no other. She had no way of knowing how he would react, other than be wounded in ways she could never forgive herself for inflicting.

"The truth is, every time my phantom lover came to me, I imagined it was you. I dreamed and hoped it was you, but I was too afraid to say so."

She sniffed and wiped her nose on a corner of the blanket.

"I love you, Zon, like I've loved no one else. But I know there's no way we can be mates. No way we can be lovers the way humans do. But that doesn't stop me from dreaming."

He had known of her need for physical love, and he had created the silvery human lover to take care of that need. Although they had all been dreams, the emotional and physical release she'd gotten from her ghostly lover had been real. Real enough to temporarily satisfy the craving for more intense interaction.

Which was why Hawse had appealed to her. An unspoken wish that appeared, as if in answer to her secret cravings. A real person, a real human man, and one she'd known in the past. How could she not have wanted to have sex with him?

It had been a terrible mistake, and one she would never make again.

She had Zonaton. With him, she had security, and happiness, and fulfillment. More than anything, she had love.

"Keep sending me my silvery, ghost-faced lover, Zon. If I can't have you, then let me have the false you. The you that can make me feel joy inside and out. Keep sending me that, and I can be happy for the rest of my life."

The confession left her with a bright warmth enveloping her heart. He may not have heard her words or thoughts, but through whatever miracle connected them, that miracle Zonaton referred to as their True Pairing, he understood she had reconciled with herself and with what had occurred with Hawse. She would not suffer nightmares, or be made to deal with horrific flashbacks because of the man. And Zonaton had sent her a loving sense of peace as solid as if he had held her in his arms and caressed her.

Closing her eyes, Emmala allowed herself to drift to sleep.

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